the little things

image from pexels.com i stood outside of the office, switching between talking with my friend/former coworker and mom, borderline panic attack, talking on the phone, pacing back and forth and gasping for air as tears strolled down my face, not knowing what would be next for me.  'i can't do this anymore, i think i have to walk away,' is all i remember saying.  i knew i had to walk away, but it was terrifying - the thought of leaving a job i'd only had for a few months that wasn't working out. but i didn't have anything definite lined up. my mind was racing and i was shaking, wondering how i would pay for my rent,  how i'd be able to afford my livelihood. how i would be able to afford healthcare or go without.  but i also knew i couldn't keep going the way i was - dealing with depression, fighting anxiety, skipping meals and only living on caffeine, crying hysterically on the way to work or on the way home. constantly stressed and feeling like i needed to...

  image from pexels.com saturday, i went to la for the first time in awhile with my parents.  la is my happy place. my little escape from my every day life. it has been for as long as i can remember. i've always loved visiting, whether it was trying a new restaurant, finding a location i'd seen in a movie, touring one of the studios or attending an event, like a concert or red carpet.   this time, we visited the new SoFi Stadium. we like taking tours of stadiums and arenas like that. i'm not really a football fan, but i find the stadiums fascinating. and this one really takes the cake. it's unlike anything else i've ever seen. state of the art, up-to-date with all of the latest technology and with their Google hub, they have great internet connection. it's just a beautiful space overall.  my dad and i always like to do jumping pictures wherever we go i was supposed to see taylor swift there last year for her Lover Fest concert, but of course, due to Covid, it wa...

  image from pexels.com where do i begin?  lately, life has felt a lot like starting over.  i always compare it to that of a tv show. you know how you get used to your favorite show being a certain way, but then it comes back and suddenly there's a new group of characters? And everything is just different? And you're not quite sure if you like it anymore?  i left one job, thinking i was landing my dream job. but, it turned out to be college shelby's dream job. nearly 30-year-old shelby is a different story. sometimes things just don't turn out quite like we think they will and the dream shifts.  but, in the midst of that, God perfectly coordinated things in the way that only He can. i'm now working for Charizma Co., a branding management business. i have absolutely loved every second of working with the team - letting my creativity and imagination run wild as i write social media posts and joining in the fun of photo shoots, creating reels, video content and mor...